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You did such a good job of telling me.

Saying those words out loud?

Nothing prepares us for that 

No matter how many times they may have rattled around our heads. 

We did well. 

And when the tears come, 

And they will,

Then the silently strong hugs

And the snotty sniffy noses too.

Well?

We will be good at that too. 

I am proud of you. 

Always here;

You'll never lose me.

It's That Easy. . .

He nods.

It's seems so simple

It's that easy.

And it may have been an 

Innocuous reply

With no intent 

But the hurt that is outpouring

Burns like hell

And with each tear that forms and falls

Is a precious moment of shared history 

And all she can do is watch.

One nod.

It seems so simple.

It's that easy.

One nod

So shaken.

Can't stop the fall as

Something significant washes away.

T H A T L I E S W I T H I N . . .

 Overstretched.

Wretched. 

Words

Overthought

And so misunderstood.

Stuttering.

 Teetering. 

Lost on the edge

Such fragile existence.

Stumbling hard,

Flailing grasp yields empty palms.

Weighted fibres of a rational life looped tight

Recoiling

Recalcitrant 

Retreating muscle memory 

An empty, aching void that creeps and grows

Neurons misfire.

Smatterings of light brilliance 

Bleeding out.

Hold on to hope,

Cling helplessly to hopelessness.

Flickering fervently;

Feebly fade.

A weakening pulse 
Of the Us we'd made. 

Clambering across this, 

The clumsy mechanics; 

My mind.
A well oiled machine no more.

Digging deep,

Searching for something;

Sound or sight. 

Seeking sensibility 

But instead 
Slowly spiralling;

An unravelling thread of Me,

Slowly turning, 
a

Repeated, rhythmical revolution.

I want to come back;

Yearn to see the crack of light

Of Yesterday's You and Me. 

Safe and buoyant.

Smiling - Dancing - Carefree.

Synchronistic in our own reverie. 

Try as I might

Every painful, 

Painstaking shift

No matter how slight, 

Nudges me closer to There,
The place

That breathes away my light.

Want your hands.

Please
Reach out.

Touch my pallid skin.

Hold me hard,

Pull me in

Save me from my

Dark drowning 

Injected inkiness

That lies within.