No One Knows

there is no use pretending
you are what you are
denial is the slowest form of pain
like a storm cloud
it will eventually soak you with rain
drenched until you feel the sting on skin
the chill that reaches deep within


when the one who should know
sits and silence grows
you know that the pieces will remain
scattered
a puzzle that simply cannot be solved
no one knows


darkness 
you drink it in
until sunlight comes 
creeping in
heavy hand falls 
covering your eyes
pillow plumpness
smothering your sighs
let me fall back down

want to be free
from the pain
that radiates
from within

raw 

ragged

raging

real

bony fingers
curl and clasp
clawing until
at last you gasp
let me go
leave me be

penetrating pain
stealing life
licking marrow 
from your bones
tongue probing
scooping out
the core
til suddenly silently yell
no more


this pain
has no name
but it's here 
to stay
it wants
to play 
but I'm not game


tight coils slowly unfurling
soft seduction
drawing you in
slow breaths 
give life to sleep 

sinking
falling
weightless
unanchored
free
void of feeling


but then you hit
hard ground
sends you reeling
bone on bone
flesh begins to groan
opening wide
tears too spent 
to be cried
ache until you ache no more

you don't have 
to do this on your own
share the load 

late morning breaks
with open eyes
leaves you wondering
if t'was full of lies
caught in a sleeping hell
too distant now
so hard to tell

stupid and weak
wake up to yourself
don't dwell
stop to smell the roses
and
no one will ever tell

no one knows