F o o t p r i n t s ...

T i n y  f e e t 

G i v i n g  h e a r t 

W a s  t i m e  t o  m e e t

T o o  s o o n  t o  p a r t

 

Come Play...

Come 

Spend some time 

With me

Each day's an adventure

Just wait to see

Chase my sunset

Breathe my sunrise

Fill my heart 

With echoes and sighs

Light my brightest smile

Bring me in close 

Just for awhile

Watch me laugh

 Then a little skip

Keen to make that quickest quip

In your kitchen

I watch you cook

 Thinking outside your brain-book

Pillows on me pile so high

Peel them back

And 

My Oh My

Bright lights from ceilings high

Not once in darkness did we just lie

Breathing gently 

Soft on my skin

See those goosebumps 

Rise from within 

Morning coffee 

Just the way it should be

The things that you like 

When you're with T

Water dancing along my skin

I'm almost done

I'll let you in

Walls to stretch

Touch 

Entice

Warm together 

Yes

It's

Nice

Two As One...

You are in me  

You are all around me  

Breathe you in 

Filling me 

Completely 

There goes my heart 

You've changed its beat somehow 

Real rhythm  

It is called   

Me and you   

You've taken me 

To a place I belong 

You show me  

My true truth 

Everything   

Meet me here now 

Step back into our world 

Lie with me 

Simply breathe  

Two as one 

No need to think 

We are what we both feel 

Take a chance

Hold me here

Just believe 

What we bring here

Shouldn't want it to end 

All we need

Is right here

Together

You are in me  

You are all around me  

Breathe you in 

Filling me 

Completely 

t r u e t e a r s

fall silently

delicately creeping

inching down

slowly 

brushing that blemish

staining the creases

of cheek

chest rises up

breath deepens

familiar sting

lip quivers

here it comes again

mist forms 

across the 

eyes once clear

focus softens

heart hardens

come on

surge of emotion

caught 

like a fluttering moth

in the hypnosis of 

light

breath held

at the top of 

that roller coaster 

of life

moment of control

fear

let it go

let it out

the first wetness

a soothing coolness

against the heat of hurt

once out 

escape 

is relentless

rivulets chasing 

streaks of pain

splash across

smoothness of 

skin

belying the 

chaos

held 

deep within

and as sudden

as the fall

the wetness

dries 

and it's gone

peak of pain

height of hurt

angle of angst

crevice of confusion

a silent crescendo

that crashes down

and there is nothing

not even a sound

a sense of calm 

soothing

silence

tears are spent

lungs tired 

gasping breath 

gives way to 

gentle 

soft

rhythms

of a

life
that

begins

again 

No One Knows

there is no use pretending
you are what you are
denial is the slowest form of pain
like a storm cloud
it will eventually soak you with rain
drenched until you feel the sting on skin
the chill that reaches deep within


when the one who should know
sits and silence grows
you know that the pieces will remain
scattered
a puzzle that simply cannot be solved
no one knows


darkness 
you drink it in
until sunlight comes 
creeping in
heavy hand falls 
covering your eyes
pillow plumpness
smothering your sighs
let me fall back down

want to be free
from the pain
that radiates
from within

raw 

ragged

raging

real

bony fingers
curl and clasp
clawing until
at last you gasp
let me go
leave me be

penetrating pain
stealing life
licking marrow 
from your bones
tongue probing
scooping out
the core
til suddenly silently yell
no more


this pain
has no name
but it's here 
to stay
it wants
to play 
but I'm not game


tight coils slowly unfurling
soft seduction
drawing you in
slow breaths 
give life to sleep 

sinking
falling
weightless
unanchored
free
void of feeling


but then you hit
hard ground
sends you reeling
bone on bone
flesh begins to groan
opening wide
tears too spent 
to be cried
ache until you ache no more

you don't have 
to do this on your own
share the load 

late morning breaks
with open eyes
leaves you wondering
if t'was full of lies
caught in a sleeping hell
too distant now
so hard to tell

stupid and weak
wake up to yourself
don't dwell
stop to smell the roses
and
no one will ever tell

no one knows

b r e a t h i n g . . .

breathing
just
pretending to be 
so robust
confused can't understand
looking on the other hand
finding it hard to swallow
all that's here is hollow
breathing
slow
wanting at last to
let it go
struggling to make sense
emotions too sharp intense
how long will these feelings last
washing over me thick and fast
caught here weak ensnared
can't see what we've shared
breathing 
still
heavy cloud filled headiness
squeezing thoughts into emptiness
sheets of white that billow
inside my head
rest uneasy on my pillow
small frame big bed
colours draining away
with words left to unsay
breathing 
fast
temperature spikes 
silent screams 
stolen thoughts 
wildish dreams
dragged down deep
fitful sleep 
tossed 
and turned
breathing 
sharp
giving up the fight to feel
too tired too spent to steal
a moment or two 
of past reverie
don't look inside my mind
there's nothing left to find
breathing 
soft
tired sleepy weakened smile
let me lay for a little while
dark past vanished from sight
I'll be here in the morning light
wanting to be right and free
sharing in the you and me

Simply T

You've taught me 

To taste

You've taught me 

To try

You've taught me 

To touch

You've taught me 

To tease

You've taught me 

To think

You've taught me 

To tell

You've taught me 

To trust

You've found the

True T in me

***Walking Words***

Suspended Here...

Let's just leave this place

Hold my hand tight

Just right

Behind my hollowed back

I'll follow you

Soaring through

Kaleidoscopes of colour

When I close my eyes

Feel you here

Next to me

I can see the stretch 

Of 

Infinity

It's in reach

Hands in hair

Soft then rough

Sublime care

Shrinking tough

Skin on skin

Come on in

Senses

Soaring

Arching back

Face hidden

Won't see my guard 

Drop

Signals speed

Draw you in deep

Chaos ripped away

Caught in the slip stream

Letting go of that 

Tiny World

Wittling away 

Somewhere far below

Hold in my consciousness

Until I can no more

Careless abandon

Surrender

You're nudging at the bottom of my heart

Slamming at the back of my mind

Warm wet amber glow

Flooding my veins

Blowing my mind

Like the first hit 

Circuit breakers
Tripping
Soft
Sensual
Stillness
Slow
Opening eyes
You're holding me
Suspended here 
In euphoria 

I hear my mind sigh

And I am lovingly lost

In the sounds of 

My heart

***Walking Words***

A Moment in Time...

In this tiny moment

I was here

Lost and found

In this tiny moment

I was stepping out

Not looking back

In this tiny moment

I was growing

In a new world 

In this tiny moment

I was feeling

Pushing thoughts away

In this tiny moment

I was breathing deep

And I didn't shrink away

In this tiny moment

I was giving

I was receiving

In this tiny moment

I was looking

Through and beyond

In this tiny moment

I was strong

Womanly warm and weak

In this tiny moment

I was open

Laid naked and bare 

In this tiny moment

I was falling

But I didn't feel fear

In this tiny moment

I was free

To just be me

In this tiny moment

I was

Alive

Feeling

Breathing

Believing

In this tiny moment

I was falling

In this tiny moment

I was falling

In 

In this tiny moment

I was falling

In 

Love

                                                    

Falling Through A Simple World...Part Four

For the first time
I felt that pregnant pause

Softly swelling between us

Worlds apart

With complicated days

Of fight-the-fight

Tumbling thoughts

Of how t'get it right

Speed it up

Or slow it down

Make it so

Before I drown

Simply falling

Our physical distance

Seems so rightly wrong

A sense of you

Simple
 Silently strong

Beneath the surface

Of my thinking

But the very essence

Of my truest feeling

Just breathe

Some time midweek

I escaped outside

Under widening skies

I closed my eyes

Standing alone

My feelings felt unknown

Feet placed upon the ground

Waiting on that wanted sound

Of fulfilling completeness

It didn't come

Stand still

And close your eyes

No more sad sighs

Don't look back

Our growing closeness

Somehow quickly

Expanding 

Small as it is

The distance

Between 
Us
Between 
The weekend

Like bolstering bookends

Propping up the 

Dusty pages

Of the Things we 

Have to do

Then Friday night

That beckoning light

Bringing me back

The stuff and things

That give us rise to share

Discuss some with 

And some without

 Care

Laugh a little 

Laugh a lot

Free to run through

Cobbled streets

Streaked with revitalising rain

A burning sense 

Of being alive again

And once more

I tumble in

Even though
There's no door

Breathless and damp
I'm caught midstep
Your rested hand upon your chin

You ensnare me as

You look up

Hold me still

Your eyes drawing me in

Didn't matter 

That there were no words

Thoughts like ours 

Cannot be heard

We speak our own

Physical touch

Across the wood

Conveys so much

My

Yours

Our

Eyes 

Occasional glance

Would have held us there

If there'd been the chance

Then you mouthed 

Thank you for coming

(Then five times more

Signalled t'was time to go)

Rain

Streets

Cars

Sounds

Blur

Luscious liquids 

Swirling

Swaying

Until

Darkness breathed us in

Warming wraps and familiar folds

Of us

Sunrise
Shapes
Warmth of skin

Kissing curves

Growing heat

Standstill-time

Close my eyes

Just breathe you in

And with each passing day 

One more insecurity melts away

And here we are
Time to share

We're just us

You and me

Two halves 

Of one 

Entirely

Effortlessly

I am here

You have gone

A subtle shift

Another layer

Deeper still

Safe 

To Share

Safe

To be

Safe 

That is you and me

A spoken trust

We've let us in

Deeper still

No longer feeling strangely displaced 

A silvery thread that cannot be traced

It has that tug and has this pull

And brings with it a sense of full

Another day

A vibrant dream

A living life

Another chance

To doormat dance

And whatever it is

That I feel right now

That makes me write

And share somehow

This thing

This sense

This feeling intense

Courses through my heart and mind

Running wild and fearlessly free

It touches me 

Fills me

And

Like the smell of drying rain

I want to experience it

Again and again

This is no ordinary love