FOURTEEN TEN FIFTEEN

I've got a feeling

I cannot shake it

I cannot comprehend

No sense and no real thing

Just a feeling

But through heartache comes a spray of warmth 

like large fat blobs of water that kiss my skin 

And it makes me smile

From the inside out 

Maybe, just maybe

This will really work itself out

The only exception

That true love truly lasts

To make it alone, I have kept it a comfortable distance 

But the bell rings and the smiles arrive 

Big, bright and exceptional 

like a double rainbow at my front door 

A tight grip on reality but when I look and see 

I want to let it slide

To come on into your life and enjoy this free-falling joy ride

A carefree, chaotic approach to real life

You are my only exception

We may have problems and we may not be able to solve them 

But you have something precious that changes how I feel

I just want to be like you

Lost in the reverie

We all need a little sweetness in our life

And you have yours and now you are willing to share

Embraces and physical touch

Eyes connect

Two bottles of red a welcome sound

Doesn't matter if we drink too much

You are upbeat and bright

Young love

The most beautiful sight

Frequent brushes of skin

Bubbling vibrancy 

Too much to ever sink in

Birthday

It is the first one we have not really had

But when I see this

I am so totally glad

Reveals of rose gold heart

And miniature charms

No one should deny you this

Yes

We all wish you the best

Some may state good luck with 

That challenging year ahead

But when I really sit and stare

I do so without the earlier 

Heavy heart of overdue care

A shift indeed

You and he-or-she, 

Will just be fine

I know this when I see

In those eyes 

The he claims you 

As mine

Starting at six

Birthday breathes 

Big, bold glasses of 

One-Tayl-Or-Two 

Rich, plummy Cab 

Sav

Your very own Aussie namesake

I won't ever make that same mistake

Embrace your heart

And don't be allowed to be forced apart

Bring you both close into my fold

Doesn't matter that I am in no way old

I will be ready 

I am wide awake

I see 

I hear

You both talk

Laugh

Giggle

Play 

Tell the tales of the night 

That led to your 20th birthday

Both dive in

Words collide and morph into one

You have shown that your lives 

Have truly begun

Shared tales

Sentences from each you end 

And when he looks at you

Love and respect simply transcend

All that was laid bare before

So the feeling that nudges

Subtly at my breast bone

Is pushed way down low

Not tonight

Put that fear out of sight

You two don't want to do it alone

I am the token one

Sole grandparent to your unborn child

Here to say how this all once begun

How little BB was actually planned

Something you both want the world 

To try to understand

Love is what brought you here

Fresh faces that disguise any fear

Six turns to twelve

One, two and now opening three

We are deep in a developing camaraderie 

In this place I am happy to be

He shares a part of his deep seated misery

It is real

He speaks so true

There is no way that

He would ever intentionally hurt either of you

He has your heart

Captured close and squeezing tight

Arms strong for you 

He would undoubtedly fight

Conversations effortlessly unreel

Religion, education and some other stuff

That seems just so surreal

Nothing appears out of bounds

You both have ideas and dreams

But what truly resounds

Is the compassion and support 

that comes in reams and reams

You clearly have each other 

and are ready to start

on one shared journey

after two pasts that may have kept you apart

and right now you two

are in the present 

expectant with a little one

with promise of a fulfilled future 

FOURTEEN TEN FIFTEEN

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FOURTEEN FIVE SIXTEEN